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every word, let it hurt: Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Thu, 22 Dec 2011 23:36:56 -0500

every word, let it hurt: Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!:

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Danika's New Blog, Same URL Different Account.

Thu, 22 Dec 2011 21:37:23 -0500

Danika's New Blog, Same URL Different Account.

Moving Danika to another account. I'll post the link

Thu, 22 Dec 2011 21:31:37 -0500

It will be the same but you’ll have to re-follow

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Thu, 22 Dec 2011 19:22:39 -0500

12/22

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Evelyn/John

Thu, 22 Dec 2011 18:03:17 -0500

The gif game? I don't think I need to explain any further.

Thu, 22 Dec 2011 17:36:53 -0500

The gif game? I don't think I need to explain any further.

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Thu, 22 Dec 2011 17:34:36 -0500

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!:

Renee looked around curiously while she waited for Danika to get changed, glancing at the girl when she heard the door to the bathroom open. She smiled brightly at once, though it changed to an innocent grin at the question. “Beautiful,” she declared sweetly before nodding at her next question. “Yeah, follow me.” With that and a vague beckoning gesture, Renee moved to the door and left the room, casting a quick glance back over her shoulder to make sure that the other girl would follow before heading down the hall and the stairwell. It didn’t take long and Renee mostly followed the scent of chlorine to actually get to the indoor pool. Pushing it open, she was delighted to see that there wasn’t anyone there just yet. “Perfect!” She declared happily before toddling off to one of the benches. Abandoning her towel there, she pulled off her shirt and pants, folding them neatly and adjusted her blue bikini carefully. With the enthusiasm of a child, Renee promptly took off towards the pool, slipping towards the end and tripping luckily right into the water.

Danika blushed a little when Renee told her she was beautiful. A lot of guys told her she was, but that was because they wanted something. She didn’t peg Renee as that type of person, so it made her feel beautiful. Danika followed her down the stair way and into the pool area. She saw her slip and fall into the water and Danika’s heart stopped for a second. Filled with panic and worry she dove into the pool after Renee. She pulled Renee up, not sure if she was okay or really hurt. Danika was sweet when she wasn’t high, shy and kept to herself some. She was always lost in her own world. It was how she was and most thought she was weird because of it. It was just another reason she used, feeling rejected and alone. Her family was ideal and she felt so undeserving of them, so lost and empty. The fact that she had no tragic story and a real reason she could think of to feel the way she did made her feel guilty and she could a way to not care for a little while, but Renee was so nice and the hope of a friend

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Tue, 20 Dec 2011 16:20:44 -0500

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Tue, 20 Dec 2011 16:19:46 -0500

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!:

Renee nodded slowly, frowning thoughtfully when Danika turned around though it quickly turned into a delighted smile when the girl hugged her. “Maybe you just actually need something so you don’t have to have that feeling,” she reasoned. It made perfect sense to her, anyway. “You need something or someone who you don’t have to think around and who makes you feel great, right?” She smiled at her logic. Simple-minded, the blonde figured it was as easy as that. Gently trying to comfort the girl by giving her a slight squeeze, she frowned with concern when Danika pulled away and wiped at her eyes, quickly smiling once more when Danika offered to swim with her. “Of course! I’d love it if you could swim with me. I didn’t really wanna go by myself anyway and I like talking to you too,” she tipped her head kindly, her smile only brightening when she realized that Danika was rambling. “Get changed and I’ll wait here for you, okay?” She said before stepping away to grab her towel from the ground where she had thrown it in her haste to sit with the girl on the bed.

Danika listened and she hoped it was that simple, but she knew it wasn’t. She however wasn’t going to tell Renee that. Why should both of them be miserable? Danika nodded and went to get changed into a black and white bikini. She came back in from the bathroom and smiled. “How do I look?” she asked, grinning. She grabbed a towel and then sat on the bed. Danika was trying to get clean for the first time in her life, really trying and for once she had a reason, to get to know this girl and not forget it in a haze of coke, pills and whiskey. “So, shall we head out?”

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Mon, 19 Dec 2011 16:30:33 -0500

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Renee smiled bashfully as soon as Danika mentioned her pretty face, swatting shyly at the other girl. “You’re so sweet,” she laughed, her eyebrows tipping up slightly with alarm when Danika said million before figuring that that was an exaggeration. When the other girl got up, she frowned unhappily and moved so that her legs were hanging off the bed, watching Danika. “I’m glad I’ve never taken drugs. Not counting alcohol,” she frowned, fiddling with her fingers a bit. “I mean…when I’m drunk it gets pretty bad. Not like violent bad, just…” she trailed off and shrugged. She affectionately called her drunk self the Mistress because of the way she behaved. Completely opposite to how she normally acted. Rising to her feet, she approached the window quietly. “Do you want to get better?” She asked gently, wrapping her arms around the girl that she had only just met from behind and squeezed the slightest bit. To her, it was less of a romantic embrace and more of a hug where one person was just inconveniently facing the other way.

”Most of the time, then theres those moments when I know I won’t have a escape from the feeling of having everything but feeling like I have nothing, emptiness. ” she shrugged and then she felt the girls arms around her. “It would be so easy to just use and not have to think or feel for a while.” she shook her head, continuing. She turned around and embraced the girl. She had tears in her eyes, but she didn’t want the other to see them. Renee was so sweet compared to those she was used to being around. She smelled so nice, calming. Danika pulled away, wiping her tears. “Maybe you’d like someone to swim with?” she asked, seeing she going to the pool. “I mean I don’t have to if you don’t want to. It’s just your so nice and I like talking to you and swimming is a nice distraction, not that you aren’t.” she rambled on.

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Mon, 19 Dec 2011 13:08:56 -0500

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Sun, 18 Dec 2011 17:31:01 -0500

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“It’s not your fault that withdrawal sucks,” Renee insisted with a bit of a smile. It faltered with thought when Danika suggested that she tell her about herself. As an extremely open person, being told to do that always made her nervous. What if she shared too much? Surely that wouldn’t happen. “That’s not boring, that’s awesome,” she smiled kindly before thinking over what she could say. “Well…I’m French. I have an accent, just…I’m hiding it so you can understand me better. I’ve got an older sister and a younger sister…we all look like my mom. And my dad’s a minister. A very…intimidating minister.” She furrowed her eyebrows, realizing that she was talking about her family more than anything. “I like making food, and I like eating even more. Swimming is fun and so are video games and cuddling. I’ve dated a total of one girl…and I’m here because my dad thought I was sleeping around with the whole city on top of my drinking problem.” She wrinkled her nose unhappily at that. “Which, by the way, isn’t true. Otherwise, I’d like to think I’m a good girl.”

Danika nodded. “You are right, I just feel if I hadn’t started with drugs from the beginning I wouldn’t have to deal with them is all.” she explained. “Then again I would of missed your pretty face.” she smiled. Danika listened. “I always love French girls. It’s the language of love.” she grinned. “I believe you.” she nodded. “I’ve dated a few and a few more guys. All jerks.” she shrugged. “The boys were all about fucking and the girls were a bit controlling.” she shrugged again. “And a million more weren’t even that. Drugs make you into someone you’re not.” she admitted. She got up and went to the window. She was nervous and scared of this pretty girl’s judgment.

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Sat, 17 Dec 2011 17:23:06 -0500

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“Danika,” Renee echoed the name with an approving smile and a nod. “That’s a lovely name.” Her smile faltered for a split second when Danika mentioned going to jail and that the court had appointed the rehab. It was insanely tempting to ask why the other woman had been in jail, but she ultimately decided against it. “Xavier, right? I’ve heard about him too.” Well, he had spoken to her a total of one time, but it hadn’t been to her face. “It’s just more drama if you ask me,” she shrugged slightly, frowning worriedly when Danika rose to her feet before giving the girl an understanding nod. From what she understood, withdrawal was hard. “Don’t apologize, it’s not your fault,” she smiled kindly, looking on as Danika came back out. “Are you okay?” She asked sweetly, gently resting a hand on Danika’s arm.

Danika looked at her. “It was my fault for using.” she pointed out. She shrugged. “My fault, my temporary hell.” she explained. When she sat down the other asked if she was okay and she thought about it. “Define okay?” she chuckled. “If you define it as I’ll live then yes.” she smiled. She paused for a moment. “It just could be worse, I guess.” she shrugged. “So, tell me about yourself.” she smiled. “I’d tell you about me but it’s rather boring. Nice parents, good life.” she shrugged. Danika did have good parents who were trying to do their best. It just got to the point where she was old enough to make her own decisions. They still never gave up, calling once a week to encourage her to try her best there.

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Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Fri, 16 Dec 2011 08:58:22 -0500

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Renee smiled shyly before nodding, stepping further into the room. She abandoned her towel on the floor next to the foot of the bed before crawling onto the bed next to the other girl, sitting up against the headboard instead of simply laying down next to the other girl like she had planned. Extending her legs out, Renee took a moment to glance appraisingly around the room before her eyes fell on Danika again with a kind smile. “I’m Renee, by the way,” she introduced herself politely, absently twirling strands of her hair around one of her fingers. The pool could definitely wait another day, she decided. She preferred keeping someone company to swimming alone any day. She would have guessed this girl’s name but if she got it wrong…well, endless embarrassment in her mind. In reality it wasn’t that big of a deal, but still. “You checked in again…so you’ve been here before, right? You seem familiar,” she smiled sweetly, furrowing her eyebrows slightly as if she was trying to remember where she had seen her before giving up.

“Danika, I’m Danika, but some call me Dani for short.” she nodded. Danika watched her. She was cute. “Twice before.” she shrugged. “Jail in between.” she smirked. “I guess they don’t like it when you get out of court appointed rehab.” he giggled a little. “The only thing that sucks this time is that new bradford they told me about on the way in.” he sighed. She looked at the ceiling and then got up. She didn’t want to sit down, too ancy. She bit her nails. “I’m sorry.” she whispered. “I just need am minute.” she told her and went to the bathroom and washed he face. She hated this the most, the withdrawals. She came back into th room. “Withdrawals.” she admitted.

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Thu, 15 Dec 2011 21:51:29 -0500

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!:

Instead of baking, Renee had decided that today was a perfect day to go for a swim in the lovely indoor pool. At least it wouldn’t have the same result of the kitchen being overfilled with cookies and baked goods. Throwing on a baggy shirt and shorts over her bikini, the blonde tucked her towel under her arm and left her room. She had every intention of just walking past the open door that she saw in the hall until she neared it and discovered that there was no noise. Maybe someone had broken into someone else’s room? What if they were unconscious? Fearing the worst, Renee quietly stepped closer, peering sheepishly into the room until she noticed legs. Another step in revealed that the legs belonged to a girl, very much alive. Smiling with relief, it didn’t quite click in that she had just walked in uninvited. “Oh gosh, I thought someone had broken in,” she breathed a happy sigh, smoothing her hair back out of her face. “Well, um…nothing happened, did it?” She questioned the stranger. It wasn’t often that she saw wide open doors. Sometimes they were ajar, left open for someone that they were expecting perhaps, but never that open.

Danika sat up and looked at the girl. She instantly smliled at how pretty she was. Her condition was obvious but Danika wasn’t exqctly going to say ‘i’m fucked up on drugs, hi.’. “It’s okay, I’m glad someone cares to come in and check on me.” she smiled. “I’m fine, I just checked back in.” she explained. She patted the spot beside her. “You can come in if you want.” she told her. Danika’s hair was up in a pony tail, long and soft. She laid back down. “I don’t bite…hard.” she giggled. Danika had changed quickly into a t-shirt and boy shorts. Danika wasn’t having fun getting high anymore, but the withdraws seemed harder then getting clean. Eveyln had tried to help her the first time she was there, but as soon as she got out she started to use again and the second time she didn’t bother to try and stay clean there. Now felt different. She just wanted to be happy someday.

Danika & Renee || The Addict Is Back!

Thu, 15 Dec 2011 21:07:57 -0500

Danika had been in and out of rehab lately between a few weeks in jail for getting out, but of course now this new brother was there and she wasn’t getting out without being sighed out by him or someone from the court. Danika used drugs, coke and pills mostly, but drank as well. Her parents were perfect, loving and supportive, but Danika just got depressed. She experimented with drugs and that was it. Danika had just got checked in and all her drugs taken away. She went to her room, leaving the door open. It made her feel less alone. She curled up on her bed and just stared out in front of her.